AND NOW????

For more than a year we are all in this incomprehensible chaos, is it a dream? No, it is a nightmare! How could we have thought about the horror falling on all of us? And we want to imagine that we will wake up suddenly in another world with no pain and surrounded by loving friends, but it does not happen. I tried first to fight it, without any kind of dissimulation, without being careful, I was impatient and sometimes incredulous, but then knowing that my efforts were useless I decided to submit myself to the times and I tried to find some peace and some acceptation, but it did not work either … I took the decision to think about tomorrow, the future, and the next episode… No real changes….                                                                                                  Many, many days passed without new thoughts and the confirmation that nothing can really attenuate the pains we are suffering…Is all finished for most of us? Can we still hope for the end of the tragedy of this world? Are we just on a foreign planet where we live only painful moments? What have we done to deserve it? Are we all alone looking for peace and comfort and trying to forget?

AND NOW A NEW VIRUS IS THERE WAITING FOR US!!!!

And now what should we do of all the time that our life will be? And for how long? One month? Three months? One year? Eternity? What should we do of all these nights deprived of sleep and these mornings coming back with no changes and haunting us? Still listening to the news trying to bring us possible solutions when we know that we cannot do anything!! Do we really have nothing left?  Will everything become a question mark with a negative possible answer? 

Everything goes on like we do not even exist!!! The world wants us to stop thinking, creating, even being… We should be sitting all day in an armchair and look through the window at the emptiness of our condition…We should accept the nonsense of a new imposed life; we should accept the denial of our existence?                                           We can only talk about the death or the disease of others to prove that we have feelings, that we have a soul, that we are capable to have emotions…  

NO…NO…NO… I REFUSE THIS FATE

I will not go away without having said everything inside me, and I hope that some friends will travel with me, friends who will still be able to smile when looking at a young child or a cloud in the sky…We should not be afraid of dying when we had the opportunity to contemplate life and tender moments of life…Despite injustice and devastation of our heart, despite incredibly hard times, despite cursed times, despite nights with no end looking at terror, we should still believe that life is still worth it and beautiful…

Too many times most people deny the possible death about people they love. And they continue to live the same way, until it is too late, and they stay remorseful and powerless…

Most of us do not know how to show to some people how are important they are in our existence, our being, and when finally, we realize it, it is too late and someone goes without us having said: thank you for being you, thank you for your love, thank you for your friendship, thank you for sharing your knowledge.

Time goes so fast that we wake up and we discover that 3 or 4 weeks have passed, and we have given no news to the dear ones.  How sad, how disappointing of us, how bizarre it is…But the thoughts should stay the same, the feelings too …We should always express to each other our feelings, our joys, our sorrows, our failures and sometimes our disappointments about our life.

 So, I want to wish to everybody everything …everything possible...Everything…they deserve…  Everything they desire… 

 NO...NO...NO…   

We will not accept to be enclosed in the silence of a semi-death, we must have the strength to tame life, we HAVE the desire to be AND WE SHOULD PURSUE a creating knowledge … 

Everybody has good reasons to be who he is, to believe what he wants, to act according to his desires…so, why should we expect anything from others?  Why should we believe that we know more about emotions? 

What we know is more important? No, it is not… 

Should we be waiting for people to have gratitude for what we did for them? No, we should not…

I remember one of my best friend Mark Flint who died a few years ago…He was more than a friend, he was more than our family, he was part of our being. While he was sick and in the hospital for months, I was traveling, I wrote to him almost every day. I sent him my thoughts about life, about the business, about my adventures... The title of my messages was: TO MAKE YOU SMILE

I was calling him MARCUS FLINTUS

 

One day I wrote to him:

My dear Marcus Flintus

These days I am thinking a lot of the past few years and how much time I wasted to fight and struggle for lost causes, causes sometimes useless and even ridiculous. I would love to be born again knowing what I know now, I know you must be thinking the same way, right?

To become Young again KNOWING… Is That what the old Faust desire ?

I am now in the antechamber of knowledge, in the waiting room of wisdom...Too many people look at me like I am a sorcerer, when I am not even a sorcerer’s apprentice. I want to be the big man that everybody reveres, and I am only an imitation of the real ME, an approximation of my intellect…You must be smiling because you must feel very often what I am recalling. How YOU cannot be wise after all these years of creativity and thoughts? Your experience of life and humanity gave you the incredible strength to go through what you are living now. It is true, the beginning of old age gives us time to think but my dear Mark, even at the beginning of our friendship I knew that we had complicity and the same ways of thinking and we could understand each other very fast…Too many people believe that life is what it is…we both do not…we do not believe in fate, we believe that we can change it by living it with a different interpretation, YES MARK, you will be victorious, soon you will be back to life, soon we will again laugh about silly things, soon we will be again talking about music, and singers, and of course about  the ones who do not understand us…Diana will be cooking for you your favorite meal and we will sit on the porch of the house contemplating the beauty of the evening, totally gaga …So continue to be strong, I did not hear you complaining once about anything, you are my hero, you are an example for all of us.. Hurry home, we are waiting for you, we need you…

 Your brother          

 Bernard

That was my last message, he died a few days later…

 

This message to my friend was like an announcement of what we are living these days… AND NOW… The end can be soon and final, but until then Life goes on, so let us continue to be strong, be an example for each other and not be overwhelmed and falling in despair and depression. We must be generous with others, understanding of the ones calling themselves enemies since they also go through HELL. We must take care of the ones around us. Are we still capable of seeing the sky and what it has to offer? Yes, years go by, and we must find answers or elements of answers to continue our path to peace…

                                                                                

Difficult moments always give a meaning to life. Yes, we will be victorious at the end and together we will laugh again about silly things and we will be contemplating the stars in the sky…  Let us be sure to see each other and rebuild the world and life, the present and the future.