QUESTIONING…….
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important
thing is not to stop questioning.”
Yes, the important rule is Questioning! And these days in the world we
are living , there are many questions we could or should ask.
I remember the day, a very long time ago when I believed I was
already an adult and convinced that I
did not need anybody to help me to become ME,
I met a man who was different from all the other men I had met…He was in
the same time serious and devoted to his work , full of humor, and always very
careful not to hurt the feelings of other people….but he also had a very
developed critical sense…He knew how to take risks but with the wisdom of an
accomplished artist; he could laugh, make other people laugh but he was also
capable with his stories to bring tears to the eyes of the people who were
listening to him …He always was going to a positive point in a conversation,
was listening to other opinions with an open mind and was capable of staying impartial in
dilemmas. And he was always asking questions about his life, our lives, our
experiences, our next chapter.
Unfortunately, I did not have the chance to know him better, I was too
busy with my personal headaches and my obsession to be successful as easily as
possible.
These days , in the incredible times we are living I wish I could have
known him better, and I feel every day that I want to be closer to his ways of
thinking, I am trying to have my thoughts and my wishes influenced by his
memory. We cannot live
without dreams and without hope. Dreams
are the mirror of the past and hope
appeals the future.
I mentioned before that I have been silent for a long time and I apologize for it, these past few months have been extremely hard for all of us and I kept silent in order not to disturb anybody. I even kept silent for the few people who are still carrying me in their heart and their friendship. But actually, these past few months have been sometimes very surprising to me, since some people who I believed had forgotten my existence were in touch with me and asking about my life and my feelings…after 2 years of agony for me… I was so happy to have these former friends contacting me and proving by their action that they were still friends and caring; it has been a huge comfort on my wounds. Sometimes , actually always, it is imperative to stay in touch with the ones we were close to at one point, especially if they go through difficult times in their personal life, let us not be judgmental, let us not be ignoring their pains or their difficulties.
Friendship
marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into
obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.
“The
opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. The opposite of beauty is not
ugliness, it is indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it is
indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, but indifference between
life and death.” Elie Wiesel
I look at the world around me and I am wondering why we have changed so
much!!!! The world is not full of little devils anymore, the little devils are
now ugly builders of schemes, with the desire to
become the one who will lie all the way to the top of the Pyramid from where
they will contemplate the crumbling world with a satisfied eye… Too often ,
they do not realize that Pyramids become also ruins if they do not take care of
the stones…We are surrounded by mobs trying to find the worst in everybody, and
every possible gambit can be good to achieve the destruction of somebody else;
Everybody now is a self- created witness
of events, and become the judge of people they do not even know and too often
the social medias perpetuate it. We have to learn to keep Hate
and Anger for later in times, the time will come , but not now. There are no rules anymore, no decency, no
restraint, no self-control, no NOTHING.
SO? WHAT TO DO? I DO NOT KNOW or I DO NOT KNOW ANYMORE or I HAD NEVER
KNOWN…
But we have to
continue to be for the ones who believe in us, for the ones we love and who
love us. These people justify the absurdity of our time, even if we can count
on one hand the ones who really
can…really can what??? WHO KNOWS??? or I DO NOT KNOW or I HAD NEVER
KNOWN…
What happened to our dreams of happiness for an equal society full of life and aspirations? We were supposed to reach the NIRVANA, this stillness of mind after the fires of desire, aversion and delusion have been extinguished. What happened to the spirit of the last decades? When we decided to rebuild the world for total harmony and total understanding of others! We were working hand in hand with the older generation using their knowledge and them using our vitality. My teachers, in university and in theater, were so close to us, we were friends, companions, and dreamers together. We made plans to bring to society: balance, equality, dreams, and happiness. No conflict of generation was involved in this collaboration. We trusted them and they trusted us, we needed them and they needed us to continue to advance in the search for a possible discovery in life and in the arts.
My heart is heavy, heavy to know too much , or not to know enough, life
went so fast, and now the emptiness around me is an abyss, and too many people
contemplate solitude these days and are devastated… After my escape from Tunis
and my desertion from Paris and after the travels all over the world, when I
decided it was time to change my ways of looking at the shattered sky, I
decided that it was time to try to be real, to try to forget the tragedies
and I wrapped myself in a whirlwind of
activities… I have been a teacher, an actor on stage and in movies, the head of
a theater company, an opera director, a scenic and lighting designer, the
director of an opera company, a librettist, I did everything involving theater
or stage crafts. Questioning myself and questioning everybody and everything,
sometimes too much and building the reputation to be a difficult person.
Price of freedom is solitude
Solitude is an art
Solitude is the nest of thoughts
But also let us keep in mind:
Solitude of the mind is real solitude
Crowd is solitude
Solitude is a jail
Solitude is a tree without fruits
Who understands humanity looks for solitude
Solitude of God is his strength
In solitude we become suspicious
To be lonely is a choice, solitude is not a choice
Hell is in that word: solitude
Sadness comes from the solitude of the heart
We cannot fall in solitude and indifference, we should continue to
question, and always remember that the opposite of love is not hate, it is
indifference…and the opposite of life is not death but indifference between
life and death….
