WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD

I have been silent for a few months basically because I have been overwhelmed… Unfortunately, not overwhelmed by work, I am used to that, but overwhelmed by the wonderful world we are living in. 

I thought that in my life I had lived and survived the worst conditions, possibilities and bad times that I could realistically go through without losing my mind. My parents went through the holocaust, I had to leave my birth country as a refugee, I lost a brother and a father at a young age and more recently I defeated cancer etc.…. But you know all this and more, so no need to rehash…

YES, so many years of struggle and pain and sorrow but also incredible and intense adventures and challenges…. Never during these years have I felt powerless or cornered in a dark room. I was always ready to look at the next closed door, ready to break in, to fight, to overcome fate, to win and go to the next stage of life.                                                                                                              

SO WHY OVERWHELMED NOW? IS IT OLD AGE TAKING POSSESSION OF MY MIND, MY VITALITY, MY STRENGHTH? IS IT JUST WISDOM TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN AND TO CONSIDER THE LAST FEW YEARS WITH SERENITY??? MAY BE IT IS ONLY DIFFICULTIES TO ADAPT TO NEW WAYS OR COMPREHEND THE NEW WORLD?

I believed that I had reached a stage of life where I could rest on my laurels and go through the last chapter with smiles, trust in others or at least some of them, peace and confidence in a wonderful world…  But, this last chapter is darker every day, and the darkness denser every day makes any action almost impossible, and even thoughts are impaired.

                                                                                                                                                

Life goes so fast that it seems I was twenty years old YESTERDAY and caressing time….

I was playing with life but always consistently prepared for the new challenge, I made so many plans, every day thinking of my next adventure, of my next chapter but always trying to be in control of it, preparing myself extensively ... Reading, studying,  learning from the Masters of the past, finding perpetual new knowledge...
I ran all over the world forever and was learning from every possibility, every encounter, trying new ways of being, knowing that each experience would bring me to a step further towards the discovery of who I was.

Unfortunately, times have changed drastically and continue to change at an incredible speed, never in human history have basics of life changed so fast.

It seems that today, knowledge is not important anymore, to know is to know what button to push to have a fast answer! Amateurism is king, the notion of real art based on talent, work and knowledge is disappearing. 

I know that every generation has different goals, different lifestyles, different beliefs but are there still possibilities for the younger generation to go through their strong years with a life based on humanity and feelings?

WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD

It seems that today everything is based on superficiality, on social medias detailing every moment of today’s life, most of the time not very interesting. I walk in the streets and rarely I see a person who does not have a cell phone in his hands or attached to his ears… The world of Instagram is now the new world for a majority of people and reaches all levels of society.

Sometimes I would like to be born again knowing what I know now. Being young again KNOWING….                                                                                                                            Is that what the old Faust really wanted? Why did nobody bring to the young Faust the wisdom of the old Faust.                                                                                

 WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD. 

                                                                                                                           I am not capable anymore of distinguishing the meaning of truth in the non-sense of today’s life. My creative strengths are disappearing, are wilting, are lost in the present society and its new rules, its new approaches to human relations or absence of relations. It seems that I do not belong anywhere, I do not know what words to use since it is too often taken the wrong way or with a different interpretation than my intention, I do not even know what to say or not to say to most people, and I am consistently always being reminded to be careful about what I do, what I think.

 Unfortunately, we live in a time where the old conflicts of life, the pains we endured are nothing compared to the mood that we have created in this society. I am almost regretting the times of tragedies we all go through in our life when I contemplate the wonderful world we are living in.

Everybody deserves everything, everybody has strong and definite opinions about everything. Everybody can flaunt his definite ideas and expose his occupations as if it is the center of the world and the center of everybody’s life BUT IN THE SAME TIME EVERY THOUGHT IS SEEN AS AN ATTACK TO SOMEBODY OR SOMETHING AND WE ARE ACCUSED TO BE … I cannot even mention the names. It would be improper on today’s rules.

But of course, let’s not forget to flaunt pictures of the last dinner, the last party, the last street we walked in, the last whatever, it is the most important way of showing that we exist and have a voice in today’s world. A world of self-importance, a world of gossips, a society based on mistrust, accusations, unprofessional attitudes and dehumanized life.

Wooden boxes, paper boxes, empty boxes are more real.

Everything seems to be rehearsed, organized, rehashed but according to strange new rules, and nothing is true, nothing is really Real.

Where is the time before this wonderful world when we were fighting for lost and even ridiculous causes? 

I thought we had reached a time when we could talk freely about feelings and tastes and directions of life and even different ways of looking at relationships.

What happened to our dreams of happiness for a society full of clemency, forgiveness, understanding? The time where we were building the tomorrow full of hopes and trust?

Everybody believes he has the right, under the anonymity, to cover somebody in mud with accusations about behavior, tastes, attitudes, fake adventures, and with words thrown in a specific situation…Everybody with no real responsibility HAS THE RIGHT to print what he wants for the benefit of the entire population hungry for dirt and tattles, and in consequence, tarnish or in certain cases, ruin a life.

 Even I, would not dare to do that, but people have no shame? The most surprising is that I am still asking this question, I had the answer a very long time ago...Shame is an invention of religion, it is not part of our basic psyche, we don’t know shame, some are just afraid to be caught or exposed or shown, so they are ashamed...

Makes me laugh or grin... No, actually grin.

The shattered sky has changed its sky…It is not Shattered anymore, it is in pieces, it is in disarray, it is an unrecognizable sky. I look at the young man of my youth (Julien) and

I wonder how he would function in this wonderful world… I forgive him, he was right to be this child full of anger, he had a premonition of the present WONDERFUL WORLD. He would not need to murder truth anymore, there is no truth …

Should we still try to find some truth in life? But the truth of what? The truth of the lies of a fertile imagination? The truth of the unfinished fantasies?  Of the last APP, of the last desire to harm, of the need of revenge using tools of the everyday new technology?                                    

A long life has passed, and wisdom took possession of Julien.

Wisdom???? Really wisdom? Today, wisdom is not considered as knowledge but as living in another century, another world, another dimension.

Are we at the end of a civilization or at the beginning of a new one. Should we hope that we are at a turning point and soon we will be in the next stage and find new truth and new humanity?

For the moment

WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD

AND PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME A COMMENT SAYING “ YES BERNARD YOU ARE GETTING OLD”